mzdeco20's Xanga

Departure :)

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 16:08:17 GMT

I'm officially moving to Blogger.

It's not that I hate Xanga, it for the advantages of Blogger.

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Thx for reading my xanga & commenting me.

I will still be updating it :) *someday ;]*
Tooldz~

Shutting down weblog :)

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 00:49:14 GMT

Im thinking of shutting this page down.

Wanted to use blogspot or something. Hmm....

Just for the Rss feeder advantages. Obviously, Xanga doesnt have one.

Grrrr.... Will post up if I decided to shut down. :)

Got Tagged?

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 05:36:20 GMT

Punya Lama oD this den I bru realize I got kena tag. Haha...Sorry Hana, this is for you... hehe~ *dush*

Your 5 impressions of him/her
. pianist
. bubbly
. erk..same size with shafa and pika..
. FRIENDLY
. is always there for her friends :)

Most memorable things he/she has give/done to you :
. She's the nicest person ever. Cuma don't mess with her la :)

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is because :
. maybe because I backstab her? erk ever ka? ;]

5 things found in my bag
. lipgloss
. compact powder
. nivea hand lotion
. my tribal necklace :)
. wallet =]

5 things found in my purse
. I.Card
. Driving License
. Money
. Pictures
. Bonus Link Card. (Useful time isi minyak ;])

5 favourite things in my room
. books
. lappie
. my Arsenal Clock.
. Wardrobe
. My study table full of pictures haha :)

5 things I always wanted to do
. Go vay-kay/travelling with my besties
. Climb Mount Kinabalu :) C'mon I'm a Sabahan & I haven't climb it yet? What?!
. Make a scrapbook (New wish list dis, Mildred, Help me!!!)
. Drive again. (Please daddy? hehe~)
. Go to DUN and tgk them debate... LIVE!!! =]

5 things I am currently into
. Japanese Soaps and Drama. (My roomate la this bawa me tgk My Bos, My hero)
. Nicholas Sparks Novel
. Dowloading stuffs
. Gadgets
. Foods!!! =]

List out the top 5 you would wish for
. Money? and More money!!!
. Brand new car. This will never happen I know haha~
. To be happy all the time
. To be able to succeed in Life.
. And to be independent and study overboard :)

[You]
First Name – Magdalena
Nickname – Mag, Meg, Maggie, Memek, Me-Mag, Magmag, Monkey, Hippo, Nyu2, Dalena (Roomate call me that LOL) etc...
Name you wish you had – None that I can think of right now~.
What do people normally mistake your name as – They pronounce it like they never heard that name before, ngek~, Sometimes it become Magdalene.
Birthday – 21 Oct~!!!
Birthplace – Kota Kinabalu yeah =]
Time of Birth – Idk, my mum pun didnt tell hehe~
Single or taken – Currently, taken
Zodiac sign – Libra, the ones who is indecisive. =]

[Your Appearence]
How tall are you – Not so tall =]
Wish you were taller – Ab it yeah, but let it be hehe~
Eye color – Hazel brown
Eye color you want – Blue maybe, or green. Ala the type yg powerful eyes that eiseh ;p
Natural Hair color – Black but now like got rosak2 oD
Current Hair color – black =]
Short or long hair – Long hair
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color – Nope but I do know 1 who did. Heehee...
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair – Umm when i decided to go for chinese. & It turns out bad enough haha
Glasses or contacts –Glasses. I takut to poke my eyes with contact lenses ;p
Do you wear make-up – Occasionally yeah, but most of the time. no.
Ever had hair extensions – npe.
Ever paint your nails – yeah lol u~.

[This or that]
Flowers or Chocolates – Chocolates please.
Pepsi or Coke – Coke
Rap or Rock – Rock but not too heavy, old school preferrably
Relationship or One night stand – relationships
School or Work – school =]
Love or Money – a mixture of both hehe...
Movies or Music – Movies with great musics hehehe
Country or City – Country...
Sunny or Rainy days – Both :]
Friends or Family – Both!

[Have you ever]
Lied – Like u never?
Stole something –yupp! but when I was a kid la. The clip still exist in my house hehe.. the one yg i stole from Gaya street.
Smoked – Yupp.. Somehow it turn out to be my stress reliever but I dont smoke all the time la. Just ocassionally or when I am really REALLY and have to be REALLY REALLY depressed. :P
Hurt someone close to you – I'm sorry :(
Broke someone's heart – yeah. :(
Had your heart broken – yeah, who doesn't?
Wondered what was wrong with you – yupp~
Wish you were a prince/princess – Once upon a time la hehe~.

Liked someone who was taken – Erk nope I guess :)
Shaved your head – : Wanna try one day :p
Been in love – Yes.
Used chopsticks – Yupp...
Sang in the mirror to yourself – Ever. Lol~ Nasib mirror is an object, if not, who knws what will it comment me hehe...

[Favorites]
Flower – umm nt yet decide hehehe
Candy – umm lollipop, not the one yg huge round shape ah.. the one yg small mcm microphone shape that and gula2 hacks and all types of candy :P.
Song – All :)
Scent – of my mum egg shaped perfume. Lupa the nama
Color – green but colours apa pun I like baa..colours ba tu~
Movie – Too many to list down
Singer – none specifics.
Word – "no way", "really ba", "ahhh ya la tu", etc~.
Junk food – almost all junk fud la hehehe
Website – FS, FB, MS, Xanga, Utube :)
Location – HOME, Tg.Aru beach..
Animal – The cute ones
Ever cried over someone – yes.
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself – some of it yeah.
Do you think you're attractive – Not really lol~ I need to fix a few more things before I achieved the attractiveness hehe
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose – I wanna be pocahontas~ The whole red indian and the whole ritual thingy so smart :)
Do you play any sports – yeah, used too, hand ball and basketball.

I tag:
- Cammie
- Thara
- Anisah
- Syafiqah
- Afzan
- Those yg come from different blog web. Blogspot, xanga, friendsterblog etc.
- Those yg reading this & found out u needed a hobby too....
- *scroll up and dwn*
- *going to click submit :)*

"Yeah, well tell that to those who suffer."

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 04:27:40 GMT

Yes, am bored.

Yes, I need a hobby.

No, please don't tell me to play games. ( I'm over that.)

Yes, please suggest me something. (I seriously need to learn how to have fun?? Huh?)

Yes, I am a boring person. (No need to tell me, it came to my senses anyway )

There you have it, a boring entry from me. Oh by the way, while I was cleaning up my external HD, I found my long lost movie... "A walk to Remember"... I'm a huge fan of Nicholas Sparks and after cleaning up, I watched the movie. Bummer, the video aint in a good shape but its still watchable. I prefferd the book version though. Use my own imagination picturing the whole story. :] Books are always worth reading. Too bad, books are just so expensive. Maybe after my salary, I'll get more Nicholas Sparks book, hopefully I get the time to read :) and if I even have a job. Part time pun Part time la. hmmm.. At this point, I am really penniless and I am defined as U.N.E.M.P.L.O.Y.E.D which in Macroeconomy means I am willing to work but I need to find a job. =] Anybody? =p Anyway, so yeah, back to the movie, as usual, it never fails to seized my attention and there's a part where I agree to Jamie point of view. && I quote...

"Without suffering there would be no compassion."

Compassion : Deep awareness of the suffering of another coupled with the wish to relieve it.

However, not all agree to this quote right? Instead, while suffering they choose to hide it behind fake smiles and having fun with buddies, trying to run away from the problems. Whats the point? It only comes back in the end. I admit I used to run away from problems too, taking wrong solutions in order to feel right again. All the pain wasn't worth it, but what made me realize is those who is around me. I lose some friends who cared about me. I gained some who did care and some were just faking it to gain benefits from me. It doesnt matter. I know who and who really did care about me and really take me as a friend. Thinking back, I was really an idiot. Thanked God, I found awareness. Anyway, after all the suffering, I realise there is much better things to do then put myself in a misery state. I found myself nowadays, fortunately, happy =]

Thanks to everyone who is around me. I really want to feel right again, but this time without the fake smile and without the hanging out with friends to hide the guilty pleasure. Without taking the move trying too hard to impress other and that makes me a hypocrite. I need to learn something new and I promise to myself, the next time I'm in the same situation again, no more taking the wrong way. && maybe should stop trying fixing stuff with ex's? It does makes people look kinda desperate and sending wrong messages like... "I want you back"etc, moreover when that person found a new gf or bf. But is not wrong kan to fix things? Maybe it's just a tradition or way of thinking where people choose not to talk to their ex's anymore after breaking up. What's ur say? =]

One More Week and Im off to Lala Land!! ;]

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 15:32:10 GMT

Ignore the title hehe.. Yeay. One more week, 3 more papers and I'm done with UiTM 3rd Semester!! I am just so glad its gonna end real soon!! My account paper finished exactly on 5.45 pm, 7 Novv, Friday. Im glad its over as the last 10 mins before submitting, I got headache. How IRONIC can that be? I hate account so much that not all of my balance sheet balanced! I even got a loss on my first Income statement!! WTF? I guess Im just so bad at accounting hahaa!! Whatever. As long as I know what I have written in the paper would at least give me some points. Argh.. I'm so scared that I would repeat, but for now I hope it doen't happen. *biting my nails* Curse Published Account for bringing 25 full marks and the confusing company account. I was supposed to be able to score in company account and have 20 full marks but arghhhh but they twisted the preference share account to be written off against profit and loss acount which got me confused for a few mins. and I proudly forgotten how to do all the steps. Ahhh... oh well. better luck next time :) Hehehe~

Anyway, seeing that I have 3 more papers to go - Macro Economy (Mon), Current Issues in M'sia (Fri) and Public Administration (Sun) and Monday I'll be packing my things up and goodbye DORM!!! weehuuu~!! Now that I'm about to be free.. I should start planning what to do next? Here's a few of my thoughts -

Work @ Tune as a perfume promoter. Promoter again? *Technically thats the only thing I know how to do, PROMOTE :]*
Working out to bust all the fats in me. I need my slim figure back!! I AM SO BERISI NOW!!! :(
Persuade dad to let me drive again?
Start on scrap booking?
Online and blog?
Chores at home... No salary.... but pity ba my amah, she curretly got amnesia. So she gotta rest.
Reading? I found a book lately and It was nice about Political Parties in M'sia Paradigma. At least that is how I remember what it sound liked. ;]
Planning how to make suprises for both the couple, Lawrence and Rushell. Erk, masing2 ask me to plan. Haiya.... ;p ngehehe....
Spend more time with redz perhaps? Since he's not goin to KL.

Is there anymore I can do??? Argh it's gonna be a boring holiday maybe. I hope not. I really wanna go have fun!!! Ahhhh help me... hehehe~ Well then then, will blog again soon. Tooldz~~

A very LONG entry. Bare with me~

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 17:06:31 GMT

So here I am, blogging my way out. Well as every other day, I went to the library with Redz to study. Well actually, I was supposed to study accounts. Due to me being forgetful, I forgot to bring my account notes and I'm stuck learning Macroeconomy. So there I was studying, calculating the equations, I ended up bored. So I left him to sit with some friends or juniors I guess, the Franciscan. Guess what did I do. I scribble their notes and seeing she was Okay with it, I have no intention of stopping. After a while disturbing them study, I went to my table and looked at Redz. For a moment when I left him, I thought he was reading, but when I moved over, he was playing games! He was as bored as I am haha~ I guess we weren't in the mood to study. So I encoureged him to at least study a chapter, so he did and soon after that, we went to the beach. Raining. ahhh~ bad day. I was hoping to see the clear water but oh well. But before I continue with my point of blogging today, Here is what I ended up scribbling on his notes, the one I encouraged him to read "Human Resource". Lalalala~

Here's a picture of his kitten at his crib. =) Nakal this!!

Ps. I hate it when people talked about religion, it seems like now they misunderstood what is Islam, Christianity, Hinduism and Buddhism (the four major religion here). Stop saying other religion is bad other than yours. Aaahhh!! Why?! Each religion has its own beauty so stop with all the commotion!! I want peace and without all the fuss. Religion is there to GUIDE us not ~~break us~~.

[E.N.D]

untitled.

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 23:52:42 GMT

Well its early of november already and soon it will be 2009. Aww.. how time flies THIS FAST?! Well honestly I still aint satisfy with my "teen" years and seing 19 is the last "teen" in age and if 19 is the last, what does 20th mean?? Adulthood? or pre-adulthood. Whatever it is, I'm anticipated. 2 more years and I am fully legal!! =) and also, GRADUATED. *hopefully!!!* Well so far, what have I achieved over the past months in 2008? Here's a list perhaps, if u wanna call it a list haha....

Im with a guy who I had a crush on at the end of my first semester break .
Technically, the crush thing didnt happen long enough and ended around January but hey, Im glad he made his move and didn't quit on me...
I finally got my license after long procrastination.
Struggle to understand Public Administration subjects and Current Issues in M'sia. Oh yes. Boring stuff :(
Got like really good marks in P. Admin subjects. Thanked God.
Trying to figure out why Accounting is so damn hard and boring.
Trying to memorize what Micro and Maro mean. Economy is just so confusing.
Procrastinate is still my BAD & WORST habit ever. *sigh*
I gain more weight and it worries me alot!!
My dad forbids me to drive lately. "...Emotionally Unstable..." he noted. Lol.
Lost some friends, gained new ones. But it ain't the same y'know.
Exam is on and I just started revision. So lame.
Understand why this certain girl still can't get over her high school revenge/vengence and kept hating on me. Lame.
Hit my house gate while practising my driving. During L license la. haha... Funny. Make my mom lost her mind. She was furious!!! Lol~
Finished my KESATRIA training!! Am so proud!!! Ngeh~
Started to devote myself with Skype and Facebook. Facebook is so cool you know.
soon to be edited cz i kinda forgotten what I wanna say =)

So thats about it today. I'll post up somethig decent soon ya? hehe... tooldz~

wild thoughts..

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 17:01:07 GMT

Just so you know...

By mzmag©.

Like every other girl,

I’m longing for someone to fill in my emptiness...

The feelings I’m feeling, were indescribable,

I’m longing to be loved, having someone to talk to,

Someone to listen to my endless, pointless speech,

Someone who would support me,

No matter how many times I changed my mind,

Someone who would speak their mind once I’m done cranky...

And, most importantly, someone who would sweep me off my feet.

But,

What’s left is just hope.

You do know,

It was hard for me to say the word “NO” to you.

And it was bad enough to see you sulk.

As long as you’re happy, I’m willing to sacrifice.

We may not know a lot of each other,

But time will tell...

Too bad, you didn’t believe in time...

Instead you said it's all depend on the person itself.

Maybe what I was hoping,

Was just too much for you,

Maybe both of our expectation is just too high.

But honestly, I really have no idea.

Crumbling down or giving up,

Is just somehow there, in our options,

Whichever it is, we still choose to live in denial.

I know, I am going to regret of the decisions I made,

But I believe in pro’s and con’s of the justification we've made.

In the end,

I’ll just wait and keep my fingers cross.

Maybe it will happen someday,

Fulfilling my every hopes and dreams,

Perhaps being with my prince charming as I wish it to be,

Completing the fairy tales I’ve made up myself.

But until then, just let me wrap myself up,

In something I thought was right all along.

-Just something I thought of =)

-I know it’s bad, I’m Sorry =]

How to be dead?

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 17:21:42 GMT

I really...

Feel like leaving... (NOW)

Feel like running away... (NOW)

Most Importantly, I feel like drowning myself

Into a pool of doubts and hesitation...

Because i just couldn't remind myself over and over again...

Of the ~~same things && off the same situation~~...

Ahh..screw me~!

***************************************************

I got this quote from the movie Juno....

The scene where she and her dad had this father daughter talk. It inspires me :)

"In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with."

I'm still looking for it...

R u the missing piece in me?

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 07:34:47 GMT

I'm feeling really down today...
&& I just wanna post it up in here...
Telling how sad I am. Pathetic? I'm sorry...
Things just got way complicated && It's getting confusing everyday.
Currently listening to Gavin Rossdale - Love Remains the Same...
I love the song :)
Awwwwww.... *yawn*
I'm tired too... due to swimming yesterday.
I LOVE THE CORAL REEFS =D
Yes, i don't really know how to swim but hey, I still can hehe x]
Well.. a lil bit I mean. I can float :) *bangga la kijap... lol~*
Right now, I just wanna go away from here.
Far from every of my confusion, causes and losses.
What did I get myself involve in?
I'm sorry...
I don't know what to do anymore... :(

&& Something really catches my eyes last nite.

"Love Kills Slowly"

I AGREE...

[updated 27 sept 08]